danced both edges of the knife

The Swell Season is amazing.  Marketa Irglova and Glen Hansard make up this little duo based in Ireland. Glen is the lead singer for The Frames and Marketa is a classically trained pianist and vocalist from the Czech Republic.  They starred together in the lovely movie "Once" and won an Oscar for the song "Falling Slowly".  I just bought their album Strict Joy and their self-titled album is in the mail on its way.  The music they make together is so wonderful.  The instruments are beautifully played, the lyrics are simple but powerful, and their vocals are astounding.

"You were restless, I was somewhere less secure, So I went running to the road, And so now there's a long list of places I was, I quit my rambling and came home. Cause Maybe I was born to hold you in these arms."

"I know we're not where I'd promised you we'd be by now, But maybe it's a question of who'd want it anyhow... Ok I'm not what I promised you I would become, I know we're not what I promised you we'd be by now..."

"Well I never heard the warning, I haven't got things right, Yet the sun came out this morning, and filled my room with light. So go on now, you are forgiven, Let's put it down to life, The story of two lovers, Who danced both edges of the knife."

"And rest your head, In my lap, And I'll lead you out of your own trap, And I'll show you how much, You have missed through the, Time we weren't right"

Those are some bits and pieces of a few of their songs.  I really do enjoy their music so much.  I'm actually using one of their songs in my video photo essay for my digital photography class.  I might post it on here when it's all put together.  That won't be for two or three weeks though.
(This picture is from their MySpace page.)

(New profile picture courtesy of one of my classmates, Nathan!)


oh bother

Concentration is impossible right now...
Can't think about anything except...
...Oh dear...


future/present dreams

Busy, busy.  Been so busy and distracted and scatter-brained lately.  Thinking of a million things I need to do, forgetting to write them down so I'll remember them, and then spending my time trying to remember what I was going to do.  It's comical in a frustrating sort of way. :)
The biggest most exciting thing that's happened recently is that a few of my photographs were accepted into the student art show at my school.  I am so psyched!!!  I submitted a print from my film photography class and then three photos from my digital photography class.  The film print and two of the digital photos were accepted.  I couldn't believe it when my teacher told me my pieces got in!  I was so flabbergasted!  The opening reception for the student art show is this Sunday at the Jacoby Arts Center and the pieces will be on display until May 9th.  I'm terribly excited!  I've never been in an art show before!  I haven't ever really taken art classes like this before either, and I'm definitely enjoying them.
I've been trying to sort out in my mind the steps to starting my own photography business.  It's going to be a lot of hard work, but I do think that's really what I want to do.  I need to chat with some local photographers and see if I can pick their brain as to how they got started and see if they have any tips or advice.  I have a notebook that I'm keeping track of all this stuff in, but remembering to do research and such is hard.  I'm thinking about just pinning a huge piece of paper to my wall and writing on it what I need to do.  If I can see something, then I'm more apt to remember to do it.  I need to figure out my rates, turn around time (time between taking the pictures and having them ready for clients), watermark/logo (I'm a bit paranoid about people stealing my work), and so many other things.
I would like to continue shooting film outside of school and selling the prints as art, so I was asking one my teachers about the best labs to send my stuff to for processing and printing and such.  I need to ask him about matting and framing too.  If I can mat and frame my own photos, that will save money.
The thought has entered my mind recently to possibly go to art school after I've gotten my photography certificate at the community college I'm at now.  Either go to art school or some four-year college that will have a more extensive photography program than what I'm in now.  The only thing that scares me about that is going into debt.  Art school can be expensive.  Starting out in a photography business can be expensive at first too.   But there are scholarships and ways to save money.  It might happen, it might not.  Have to wait and see what God wants me to do.
So yeah, I've got a million things running through my mind that I need to sort out, not to mention I'm still in the process of scanning and archiving photos for the OAFC reunion in June.  Good grief.  At least when this semester ends that will alleviate some of the pressure and give me a bit of down time before the summer hours start at work.  I'll be working eight hours a day over the summer, Mon-Fri, so that will be nice.  I need the hours and the money.  I think I'll definitely fall into the category of "starving artist" for a while. :)
Right now music-wise I'm checking out Jack Johnson, 3OH!3, and Flight of the Conchords.  I've loved Jack Johnson for a while (Banana Pancakes is one of my favorite songs), so I've checked out one of his CD's from the library to listen to.  I checked out 3OH!3 from the library too because I kind of like one of their songs and I thought I'd check out some of their other stuff.  So far I'm kind of iffy on it, but we'll see what happens.  A few of my friends are absolutely in love with Flight of the Conchords, and I've heard some of their stuff, so I'm looking into them some more.  Music, music.  It's awesome.  I don't know what I'd do with out it.
Well, time to hit the hay.  I've been getting decent amounts of sleep last week and this week, but I've been so tired still all the time.  Sleepy, sleep.  I'm coming.




Fear is a good thing.  It's a healthy thing.  Having a healthy, cautious fear is not something to be ashamed of.  Crossing a four-lane highway without a crosswalk is something to be afraid of.  Driving close to the speed limit so you won't get pulled over, that's a healthy fear.  Putting sunscreen on so you won't get sunburned, that's being cautious.
So yeah, fear is a good thing.  But what's not good is when you let fear rule your life.
What if you never tried anything new or never took any chances because you were afraid of what would happen?  What kind of life would that be?  You've got to try new things.  It's one of the best ways to learn about stuff!  And if something turns out bad after taking a chance, so what?  At least you've learned to not do it again.
I've let fear and second-guessing stop me from doing things.  After I let that happen, I sit and wonder what would have happened if I had taken that chance.  Sometimes wondering "what would have happened" is more torturous than if the chance had turned out badly.
Chances are all over the place.  School, jobs, careers, friends, family, relationships, everywhere!
Would you let a not-so-great past relationship stop you from starting a new one with a new person?  Would you try long distance again after it not turning out so well last time?  This is the biggest chance, the biggest fear I'm dealing with.  It's been quite a few years since "last time" and the circumstances are different this time.  The people involved are more mature, more alike, and closer to the same "level" "relationship-wise", if you get what I mean.  I need to get over this fear and take this chance.
Fear is a good thing.  But don't let it stop you from trying what could possibly be a great thing.



lent is my favorite

Lent is my favorite church season.  That might change if I become a pastor's wife and have to directly deal with the stress of the many church services and such, but for now, Lent is my favorite and I'm going to enjoy it.
There's more than one reason why Lent is my favorite church season, and I'm going to attempt to explain them.
One of the reasons is the many church services.  I love getting to go to church more than once a week.  Not having to wait an entire week before going back is so wonderful.
Lent really helps remind me of what Jesus did for me, for all of us.  It's so humbling to hear it all over again.  I'm having a hard time describing exactly how much this means to me.  It's deep, really deep.  Like, an immovable, totally permanent reassurance of how much God loves me and why I am here on this earth.
Music really moves me, so I find the hymns that we use during Lent to be extremely meaningful.  My Song is Love Unknown is definitely one of my favorite hymns of all time.  There are so many other hymns that I love, but I'm terrible at remembering their titles or page numbers.  Tonight at the Tenebrae service a girl did a solo and it was so perfect for the overall tone of the service.  It made me cry.
So yeah, I don't think I fully succeeded in explaining why I love Lent so much, but I gave it a shot.  It's a hard thing to put into words.