To be honest, I've forgotten why I made this blog.  What was my plan?  My grand design?  I don't remember.  I don't remember my intentions, what I was setting out to do.  What is the purpose of this blog?  Why did I make it?
Did I think that the simple going ons of my life would interest anyone?  Was I going to log my day-to-day activities?
Or was it for reflective purposes?  To sort through the jumbled mess my brain turns into at times?  A place to organize my thoughts?
Was it for a cause?  Was I going to "change the world" one blog post at a time?  Was there something important I wanted the world to know?  Something I'm passionate about?  Something bad that needs changed?
People who drone on and on about their supposedly pathetic lives, complaining about every single little thing as if the sky was going to fall, they annoy me.  FML?  Why the heck do you think you have the right to use that expression?  "I just stubbed my toe! FML!"  Really?  There are people who have it much worse than you do.
I don't want to be like those people.  I don't want to complain about how sad and pathetic I might think my life is.  Who would want to hear about that?   No one.  That's not what this blog is for.
But what is it for?  I still don't know...
Was I going to record the occasional profound thoughts that sometimes pop into my head?  If so, that wouldn't be very often.
Again, why did I make this blog?  I don't remember...



Seems like whenever I think of something really good to write about on here, I either don't have time to write it or I'm not at home.  It's kind of frustrating.  Maybe I should carry around a little notebook and constantly jot ideas down in it.  That's an idea.  Now if only I could remember to do that...
Any who.
A shout-out to my six followers on Blogger:  Thank you!!! Seriously, thank y'all so much for following me on here.  I know so many other blogs have so many more followers than I do, but I appreciate each and every one of you six people.  You make me happy.  :)
Here's some videos for y'all to enjoy.  I got two CD's for my birthday: Family Force 5 and Patrick&Eugene.  This first video is Put Ur Hands Up by Family Force 5.  I got to hear them live at Agape Fest on the 1st of this month.  It was so awesome!!!

And this is Patrick & Eugene.  They' from the UK and not very well known.  One of their songs is on a Laughing Cow Cheese commercial though.  :)  I like their music.  It's fun.

I'm going to try that notebook idea.  Maybe then I'll write about more interesting stuff.
Thank y'all again, my six followers!


and what a beautiful mess this is, it's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Tomorrow, I turn twenty years old.  Tomorrow, I am no longer a teenager.  Shortly after midnight tonight, I will be older.
One of my friends is just two days older than me.  So yesterday, like what everyone else does on Facebook, I wrote on his "wall" and told him "Happy Birthday".  I added, "In two days, we'll be the same age again!"  We thought it was pretty cool when we found out how close together our birthdays are.  With the exception of two days every year, we'll always be the same age.  :)
Tomorrow is also my last day of school this semester.  I've really enjoyed all my classes so much.  This is the first semester where I'm actually kind of sad that classes are ending.  Today was the last day in the dark room and I took my digital photography final.  Tomorrow I present my photoshop final, and then I'm done.  I'm going to miss my teachers, my classmates, the dark room, the learning.  Probably the only thing I won't miss is the insane amount of driving to and from campus.  Bittersweet feelings.
Growing up, getting older, taking on more responsibility.  It happens to everyone.  Seems like everyone (not literally EVERYONE, but you know what I mean) around me is graduating, getting engaged, getting married, and having kids.  It makes you sit there and think, "What? Really? They've grown up so fast! I remember when..."  And someday, when those things happen to me, people will think the same things about me.


my empty

Here is my photo essay for my digital photography class. Sorry it goes outside of the little blog box thing. I couldn't get it any smaller.

Here's a link to my YouTube account: http://www.youtube.com/user/thecalmafterthestorm.  There's an explanation with the video there.


so many questions

What to type. What to write.
Let's just ramble.
Ramble, ramble, ramble.
I was super nervous today about presenting my photo essay in my digital photography class.  My heart was beating so fast, I thought it was going to burst out of my chest!  But I managed to keep my voice pretty even when I did a short little intro before my teacher played the video.  I probably should've said more, but I didn't want my voice to start shaking.  I was so anxious.  Would people like it?  What would they say?  What would my teacher say?  Well, no one really said anything.  They all looked at me and clapped when it was over.  I'm pretty sure my face turned bright red.  Having everyone's attention directed at you is kind of nerve-wracking.  Any who.  I survived the presentation and left right after my teacher said we could go.  And now I've uploaded the video to Facebook.... oh Facebook.  I'm nervous again.  Will people like it?  What will they say?  I don't know.
Ramble, ramble...
I went to Agape Fest on Saturday.  It was insane!!! So much fun!!! I finally got to see Skillet and Family Force 5 live.  It was so incredible!  My legs are still sore from jumping and dancing around like crazy.  I was totally intending to go to church Sunday morning, but I was so wiped out I didn't make it.  I slept until 11:00 on Sunday.  Oops!  I think the next band I'd like to see live is Flyleaf.  Now THAT would be quite a concert.
*wracking my brain for things to write*...
Mm, yeah, so, I want to get started in the photography business.  But what I'd really like is to sit down and chat or e-mail with a photographer and ask him/her some questions.  I want to get started in this business, but I've still got so many just basic questions I need answered and I want to see what I'd be getting myself into before I dive into that crazy world.  Photographers are such busy people though, I'd hate to take any time away from their work or families.   But these questions aren't going to answer themselves.  I could probably find some of the answers in a book somewhere, but books just don't compare to people.  I'd love to intern with or job shadow a photographer, just to see how they do things.  If they could kind of take me under their wing and "show me the ropes" sort of thing.  I don't know if that's common practice though or if any photographer would do that.  So many questions to ask.  So much research to be done.