I'm soft and impressionable.
I bruise easily and care too much.
Even though I have a hot temper, I eventually cool down and want to help those who hurt me.
I would like to gain allies instead of create enemies.
We all could use more friends and allies.



How we treat each other influences us more than we might realize.
Encouraging words can make someone so incredibly happy.
A careless insult can crush someone's spirit.
How things are said (or not said) means more than the actual words used (or not used).
The ways we communicate say more than what's communicated.
Behavior and actions definitely speak louder than words.
Sometimes silence hurts more than any of the harmful things someone could say.
We're constantly interacting with each other, influencing each other.
It's how we take those influences, how we handle them that matters.
You can take good out of the bad, learn from negative experiences.
What have I learned?
I've learned a lot more about my value, my self-worth.  I think that's a very important thing to know.


your turn

To know the right thing to be done, the next step to take, and for it to not be up to you is frustrating.  The ball isn't in your court, it's not your move, and you're not even sure if the other person wants to make the next move.  You don't know if they understand what's going on or the importance of it.  Maybe they don't know how to handle these kinds of things.  What you do know though is that this next step is vital; you both (and those connected to y'all) will greatly benefit from it, be able to breathe easier.  But does the other person know that too?


aloe therapy

My nasty sunburn is beginning to peel.  I'm terrible at remembering to put on sunscreen and it doesn't seem to help much anyways when I do.  We're outside a lot the first week of summer hours at work, so every year it's inevitable that I will get burned.  The raw skin is a little painful.  All this peeling, stinging, and healing makes me think of something though.
Sometimes we think it's better to hold onto certain feelings, certain experiences.  We bury ourselves in angst, pity, jealousy, guilt, and other bad feelings.  For some reason we think doing this will make us feel good, maybe give us a purpose.  But that's not true.  Harboring thoughts and feelings like this only wounds us and those around us.  What's better is getting rid of these feelings.  Forgiving, apologizing, making amends, putting things to rights so we no longer have these feelings inside of us.  Then the healing begins so healthy skin can grow.  The bad feelings can be peeled off and we have a new beginning.
It's important to be healthy mentally, emotionally, and physically.  So take care of your emotions, your friendships, your relationships, and remember to wear sunscreen.  And if you're forgetful like me, aloe lotion works great on sunburns.  :)


One of my new favorite songs.  Set Fire To The Rain by Adele.

The lyrics are amazing and I can definitely relate to them.  Plus her voice is phenomenal.  :)  I love both of her albums.

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Staying up late writing when I should be getting to bed at a decent time so I can wake up with enough time to get ready for work.  I should do this more often.

Friends, acquaintances, the people you know.  And the people you thought you knew.  How many different types of friends and friendships are there?
The people you work with.  You see them every day, but hardly ever outside your work environment.
People at church.  You know their names but don't really socialize with them.  Or they're friends of your family members or friends of friends, so you carry on casual conversation when needed but don't really feel close to them.
People you sit by in class for a semester, chat with, and then never see them again.
People you get along with really well in school and try to keep in touch with even after you've gone separate ways and don't have classes together anymore.
People you know through involvement in one organization or another, so you don't see them except for at events involving that organization.
People you see only one or twice a year because they live far away and/or they're part of that organization you're in and you only see them at the national events.
People who live in different states but you see them every few months when they come visit family nearby.
People you grew really close with during the high school years of your life, and now you don't see each other as often, but do your best to keep in touch.
People you thought you knew really well, you thought you could depend on them.  But then you realize that's not true.  The day I realized I had lost a friend that way was one of the saddest days I've ever experienced.
It was easier to maintain friendships when I lived in Texas.  We were homeschooled and part of a big homeschool support group.  I got to see kids my age all the time, kids with the same interests and family lives.  Things got harder when we moved to Illinois.  It's a different economy, a different culture and society.  Homeschooling isn't as big here as it is where we lived in Texas.  No support group, no kids my age that were also homeschooled who lived close by (try about two hours away instead).  It was the middle of my freshman year of high school when we moved.  I decided to remain  homeschooled through high school.  My sister went off to college less than a year after the move.  I was sort of left to try to cultivate a social life on my own.  Involvement in OAFC made that a bit easier, but I really only saw those people once a month and they lived too far away to get together with regularly.  I was not part of the high school cliques in the youth group at my church, so it was hard to try to make friends there.  I gave up eventually and went to the adult Bible class instead.  I didn't go to the public high school.  I didn't sit in classrooms with the same kids for four years.  I didn't get together with friends after school to do stuff.  I didn't help classmates study and they didn't help me. I didn't go to prom or attend sport events or any other public high school activities.  I was an outsider.  I was a class of one.  I wasn't part of the seclusive high school social life that went on around me.  And I was fine with that for the most part.  I had friends in OAFC and I figured that if the kids in town weren't open to being my friend that it was them who were missing out and not me.  I look around now though and kind of wonder.  Most of the people I know live an hour or more away from me and a lot of them are in a completely different state.  I'm not really close to anyone who lives close to me.  I don't have a pool of friends from high school to draw on to do things with like go to the movies or hang out or help each other with things.  And there's not many people around here close to my age that I can be friends with.  They're all off at college and whatnot.  I'm not joking when I tell people I don't have much of a social life.
So what does all this mean?  I wish I had more friends that lived closer to me.

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